Sitting Alone

I was sitting alone yesterday at zaxby's eating my evening meal just enjoying the savory bites of chicken strips dipped in that illustrious commodity called zax's sauce. I remember looking over directly in front of me to an unoccupied seat where you would generally find some occupancy in the form of a friend, a family member, or intimate other. There were none that resembled these forms today. None to fill the air with joyous laughter, none to contemplate concerns, or none to just simply gaze at and admire the culmination of beauty in their eyes. There were none this day, making sitting alone a rather empty and dissatisfying experience.

I believe that the complex of human ingenuity seeks to fulfill a craving for companionship. There is a longing to be in fellowship with something or someone and you can fill that void with anything and anyone. For me yesterday at zaxby's reminded me of my need for companionship, especially in the form of the intimate other. Thankfully my debacle did not leave me in a dilemma where I looked to fill that seat with something or someone, for I have already been filled and being fulfilled everyday by intimate other, Jesus Christ. I can sulk in my sadness or relinquish myself in the rest and company of my great companion, Jesus. In Him I find sitting alone is really not that bad, it's actually pretty darn good. I know that where ever I sit I'm not sitting alone that I always have the fellowship of the Trinity to surround me and in that I can take complete and utter delight. Without the companionship of Jesus Christ, it doesn't matter who's occupying that seat beside you or in front, you will always feel empty, dissatisfied and alone.

I guess my predicament doesn't lie in my lack of companionship, but rather my lack of trust in my companion to fulfill the desire for a tangible other to walk in this life together with our great companion, making Him known and enjoying the savory communion of being know by Him. So this is my pray for my future partner in sharing the Gospel of our great companion, the Lord Jesus Christ, " I long for the day when the seat I'm surrounded by is no longer unoccupied, but is filled with the elegance of your face, and your brilliant beauty will steal the attention everywhere we go, especially mine. I long to hear your voice and at its sound I can rejoice as it puts a smile on my face. I long for our conversations and wait in anticipation knowing a moment with you will never be dull. I can't wait to walk, to talk, to live life with you. I pray that you will be completely captivated by Jesus and the splendor of who is and what He has done for us would overwhelm you. I want you to know your never sitting alone He is always there drawing you to Himself. I love you and I'm waiting for you."


"He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord" Proverbs 18:22

Thank you Lord for always sitting with me! -be Jesus and sit with lonely who long for his fellowship!